It’s Okay To Feel Unmotivated This Quarantine

I’m back with another personal post. I kinda miss free-writing and it has been awhile since I thought about writing something so candid because lately, I’ve been too focused on planning out my contents, create quality ones, and really stick to it that it has dragged my lack of motivations and positive energy down to my core. It has left me with nothing but become unproductive all day in a week. One morning, I just suddenly felt dull, uninspired and had lost the interests to do anything. I’m not so sure if this pandemic alone is what caused me to feel all these or is it just merely because of the cuddly weather and I’ve got no one to cuddle with. LOL! As this quarantine drags on, it has slowly taking its toll on my mental health as well. It makes me worry about so many things that I need to do and all the works to get done. I have been experiencing sleepless nights, severe anxiety, random breakdowns, my body clock is messed-up, over thinking, writer’s block, and intense mood swings. They are all making me insane these past few weeks. And truth is, I am just really trying to get through them day by day. Slow progress and I’d say, it’s one hell of a month. I’ve been surviving, though. I hope you are too. This quarantine has seriously stripped away most of the excitement and enjoyment that most of us needed to manage our mental health conditions. My usual routines have been disrupted and replaced with an anxious, uncertain future, and never-ending questions on my head.

Can we still dream? What’s waiting for us tomorrow?

But then again… Some days are better than others, they say. Coping up even in a slow pace keeps my anxiety under control. I let myself enjoy the small things and be okay even if I’m not doing anything. I have filled my days reading a few lines of my favorite books, sleeping more, distance myself from social media, get lazy, candid writing, sipping coffee on rainy days, listening to the same playlist over and over again, and re-watching the films that I have already memorized. Then do everything all over again on the next day or I don’t. Remember, it’s okay to keep doing something on repeat or do nothing at all as long as it helps you to cope up. Just do it at your own pace one thing at a time. I personally have gone through everything that would keep me sane this quarantine and I know it isn’t enough to break off the feeling of isolation. But I am done pressuring myself on this. If you feel unmotivated and wanted to slack off all day, that’s completely normal. We are human! We get tired and it’s okay to take a step back and let yourself breathe. We can’t stay positive everyday. Doubts and uncertainties are parts of this reality that we are facing today. We all just need the discipline in ourselves to still keep pushing at our leisurely pace. We have different level of sensitivity and I’m sure you have your ways of coping up on things. As for me, I’m just over the moon on small things especially that I get to wake up everyday knowing that my love ones are safe from this virus, we have food to eat, and a shelter to keep us safe. These are some things that genuinely make me happy. RELATED ARTICLE Also, pot plants are making me happy these days and I did a room makeover which is truly a big help for me to stay sane this quarantine. We’ll all get through this…hopefully! Stay safe.