It’s Okay To Feel Unmotivated This QuarantineI’m back with another personal post. I kinda miss free-writing and it has been awhile since I thought about writing something so candid because lately, I’ve been too focused on planning out my contents, create quality ones, and really stick to it that it has dragged my lack of motivations and positive energy down to my core. It has left me with nothing but become unproductive all day in a week. One morning, I just suddenly felt dull, uninspired and had lost the interests to do anything. I’m not so sure if this pandemic alone is what caused me to feel all these or is it just merely because of the cuddly weather and I’ve got no one to cuddle with. LOL! As this quarantine drags on, it has slowly taking its toll on my mental health as well. It makes me worry about so many things that I need to do and all the works to get done. I have been experiencing sleepless nights, severe anxiety, random breakdowns, my body clock is messed-up, over thinking, writer’s block, and intense mood swings. They are all making me insane these past few weeks. And truth is, I am just really trying to get through them day by day. Slow progress and I’d say, it’s one hell of a month. I’ve been surviving, though. I hope you are too. This quarantine has seriously stripped away most of the excitement and enjoyment that most of us needed to manage our mental health conditions. My usual routines have been disrupted and replaced with an anxious, uncertain future, and never-ending questions on my head.
Can we still dream? What’s waiting for us tomorrow?But then again… Some days are better than others, they say. Coping up even in a slow pace keeps my anxiety under control. I let myself enjoy the small things and be okay even if I’m not doing anything. I have filled my days reading a few lines of my favorite books, sleeping more, distance myself from social media, get lazy, candid writing, sipping coffee on rainy days, listening to the same playlist over and over again, and re-watching the films that I have already memorized. Then do everything all over again on the next day or I don’t. Remember, it’s okay to keep doing something on repeat or do nothing at all as long as it helps you to cope up. Just do it at your own pace one thing at a time. I personally have gone through everything that would keep me sane this quarantine and I know it isn’t enough to break off the feeling of isolation. But I am done pressuring myself on this. If you feel unmotivated and wanted to slack off all day, that’s completely normal. We are human! We get tired and it’s okay to take a step back and let yourself breathe. We can’t stay positive everyday. Doubts and uncertainties are parts of this reality that we are facing today. We all just need the discipline in ourselves to still keep pushing at our leisurely pace. We have different level of sensitivity and I’m sure you have your ways of coping up on things. As for me, I’m just over the moon on small things especially that I get to wake up everyday knowing that my love ones are safe from this virus, we have food to eat, and a shelter to keep us safe. These are some things that genuinely make me happy. RELATED ARTICLE Also, pot plants are making me happy these days and I did a room makeover which is truly a big help for me to stay sane this quarantine. We’ll all get through this…hopefully! Stay safe.
We are surviving. Sometimes, that’s enough.
I agree! at first I was stressed out for not getting a lot of things done because i feel unmotivated but I realized that It’s okay. Its okay to rest for a while and enjoy the little things like reading good books or listening to songs…
I guess, with all the similar things I experienced during these times as yours — and probably everyone else’s here — I guess it’s fair to say I’m till human after all, and it’s still normal for people to experience this, even if the times aren’t normal.
Well, since we all have gone through this, and I think we all will get past all of these. At least, in our own respective ways.
Yes. It is our nature to sometimes feel unmotivated. When I feel not doing anything, I do nothing. But not when I have something I set out to do. We need to discern well when it is okay to feel unmotivated or when it is not.
I agree with you and to all the comments here. With or without the pandemic, it’s okay not to be okay/motivated. We all have this kind of moments but what’s important is we don’t stop/quit. Pause, take a breather, and push lang. Btw, I love Kiki’s Delivery Service. Hope you enjoyed that movie! Ingat. x
Agree! Honestly, weve been working for ao long and this time, it gives us the chance to slow down. Im actually taking this moment to rest a bit, get more sleep and allow myself to be lazy. We all have been working so hard.
Triz Tan Barreno
This is true. This is the first time we experience this pandemic. It’s okay not to be okay sometimes.
I don’t mind the isolation so much, to be honest. It’s the uncertainty out there that gets me: will I have a job after this, will businesses close, will a vaccine be available anytime soon. But yes, I’m hanging on
Travel with Karla
This is so true. Every thing that we feel is valid. It’s all our first time to experience pandemic. It’s okay not to be okay.
I feel the same way. There are days where I just kept on pondering until when will this quarantine or this pandemic will last? All of my plans are delayed and I don’t know if I’ll still be able to keep up with it. What I do is to keep myself busy, follow my daily routine, connect with my dearest ones and meditate daily. Better days are coming ?✨
Raising Kings PH
I totally get you. The prolonged quarantine has started to creep into my mental health, as well, and for me, it has a lot to do with being cooped in a tiny house with 4 other people (my husband and kids), with no yard and just a 3 feet -wide balcony as the window to the outside. So from one woman to another, hang on. We’ll get through this.
And if I were to answer your question — yes, there is tomorrow. This is not it.
Aside from it being highlighted, it really struck a chord in me too “We can’t stay positive everyday”. We don;t really have a lockdown or quarantine here in Seoul but I personally chose to stay at home, even doing my groceries online. So much of what I know about the despair of quarantine is from the posts I read. It’s easy to be affected. I also read so many posts trying to uplift others and themselves but sometimes it’s too much trying for positivity there. so yes, there is a need to face it head on and accept the despairs.
The Little BingerDale
Yas! Thank you! I needed to be reminded of this. I no longer push myself to be as productive as I was before lockdown 🙂
Well it’s okay if you want to do things or not, if that’s just the way you cope and how to stay sane during these trying times. As for me, I followed a routine lately lang eh and before wala talaga as in random stuffs lang. And as the the new normal approaches unti unti na namang nababago phasing nang life ko haha.
I totally felt you. I am not a writer but I do blogs so madaming moments na blocked ako. Kung writers nga may mga ganitong moments, ako pa kaya na di naman writer. Pero gusto ko yung ginagawa ko parang nagsheshare lang ako ng mga experiences ko, kung baga mas pinahabang facebook posts. Anyway, thank you for sharing your experiences during this unprecedented times. Makakatulong to sa mga nagbabasa with the same sentiments to keep pushing, even little by little, at their own pace ?
Awww. I can relate to this so much. I feel like I’ve been trying so hard to be okay to stay sane through out this quarantine by doing all of these things, but yeah I don’t really have to. And it’s okay to not be okay and I’m accepting that now.
We live in a high-speed world. Work and personal life are often rushed and mashed together in a blur of activity. Sometimes we have to give ourselves a break – time first muna – away from all the hassles and pressures in life and just be lazy. And you are right, it’s completely normal. ?
Hi Khae, I enjoyed reading your blog posts, i browsed on a few titles too and subscribed to your YouTube channel. This quarantine period has taken the better of me, I have been feeling unproductive most times. I just hope this pandemic plays out soon. Keep writing and inspiring!
You are in the state of hybernation and that is okay. Don’t force yourself to be motivated or feel guity just because your online circle does. Just be patient. Some brilliant ideas comes from unmotivated situations.
I agree on you. Not all would be able to stay completely motivated everyday, there are certain personalities and level of endurance that would be really affected with the apparently endless community quarantines. It is ok, yes, but at certain point we have to bounce back and face realities the different way now. I too suffered during lockdown.
Agree to all this. We have to remind ourselves that we’re in a pandemic and not a competition. It doesn’t matter if you’re productive or not. 🙂 Stay safe!! Gusto ko na rin maghalaman! Hehe
Eh yung sarili ko kalaban ko sa pagiging productive eh ? hello miel, stay safe din ikaw diyan! ☺️ Hahaha mag halaman ka na rin and welcome sa pagiging “plantita” hahahaha ?